I need to move on, i need someone to replace you... sana malapit na yung time na yun..
sana makita ko na ang hinahanap ko...
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Saturday, November 10, 2012
it's just that...
It was my birthday and it's just an ordinary day until it ended.
Everyone of us wanted our day to be extra special but to me, it didn't happen. I was hurt, disappointed and all I can do is to cry in the middle of the night like this, thinking of what did I done wrong to suffer and feel this kind of pain. Nobody called, no one surprise me either and no one ever dared to make me smile, I was so hurt, really hurt, even my own father ruin my own special day.
Though I received lots of greetings through my Facebook account, there's something in me na gusto ko mangyari to satisfy myself or my expectation.
I know no one can make me happy except for myself. I make myself happy, I pamper myself and made my day as happy as I could but It was just an ordinary day. I suffered enough, di ko alam but nangyari lahat yun on my special day, I was never happy. Maybe it was just the way God planned it, but why?? I know God has a reason for allowing things to happen, for allowing me to make my tears fall before, during and after my birthday. It was just "yun lang yung araw na dapat maging masaya ako, kahit isang araw lang sana, di nangyari" I don't know why, or maybe God is just preparing my one special day of happiness,or not a day, maybe a month, a year or forever?? or maybe, I expected too much? I'm thinking of the things that is not served or di ko lang pinapansin kung ano yung meron, kung ano yung nakahain..I am blessed, very blessed in some aspects of my life I know. But when and where can I find my true happiness??.... Still i'm searching for it and i'm very much hungry and dying to have it.
Everyone of us wanted our day to be extra special but to me, it didn't happen. I was hurt, disappointed and all I can do is to cry in the middle of the night like this, thinking of what did I done wrong to suffer and feel this kind of pain. Nobody called, no one surprise me either and no one ever dared to make me smile, I was so hurt, really hurt, even my own father ruin my own special day.
Though I received lots of greetings through my Facebook account, there's something in me na gusto ko mangyari to satisfy myself or my expectation.
I know no one can make me happy except for myself. I make myself happy, I pamper myself and made my day as happy as I could but It was just an ordinary day. I suffered enough, di ko alam but nangyari lahat yun on my special day, I was never happy. Maybe it was just the way God planned it, but why?? I know God has a reason for allowing things to happen, for allowing me to make my tears fall before, during and after my birthday. It was just "yun lang yung araw na dapat maging masaya ako, kahit isang araw lang sana, di nangyari" I don't know why, or maybe God is just preparing my one special day of happiness,or not a day, maybe a month, a year or forever?? or maybe, I expected too much? I'm thinking of the things that is not served or di ko lang pinapansin kung ano yung meron, kung ano yung nakahain..I am blessed, very blessed in some aspects of my life I know. But when and where can I find my true happiness??.... Still i'm searching for it and i'm very much hungry and dying to have it.
Tuesday, January 03, 2012
Cosplay: Enma Ai~~~ The Hell Girl ~~~
You Made Me Better Today..
What I am now, I owe it all to you my Lord, I thank you for everything you've given me, to my family, to my friends and to my love ones. I may have gained and lose some of them but u made me realize that things in life are not permanent. We need to move forward, meet new people, new experiences, stumble and stand again. In everyday life, I learned that I should not focus only in what is in front of me neither, I need to focus on things that surrounds me because each of them has a special part of my life stories' success.
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