it's just that...

It was my birthday and it's just an ordinary day until it ended.
Everyone of us wanted our day to be extra special but to me, it didn't happen. I was hurt, disappointed and all I can do is to cry in the middle of the night like this, thinking of what did I done wrong to suffer and feel this kind of pain.  Nobody called, no one surprise me either and no one ever dared to make me smile, I was so hurt, really hurt, even my own father ruin my own special day.
Though I received lots of greetings through my Facebook account, there's something in me na gusto ko mangyari to satisfy myself or my expectation.
I know no one can make me happy except for myself. I make myself happy, I pamper myself and made my day as happy as I could but It was just an ordinary day. I suffered enough, di ko alam but nangyari lahat yun on my special day, I was never happy. Maybe it was just the way God planned it, but why?? I know God has a reason for allowing things to happen, for allowing me to make my tears fall before, during and after my birthday. It was just "yun lang yung araw na dapat maging masaya ako, kahit isang araw lang sana, di nangyari" I don't know why, or maybe God is just preparing my one special day of happiness,or not a day, maybe a month, a year or forever??  or maybe, I expected too much? I'm thinking of the things that is not served or di ko lang pinapansin kung ano yung meron, kung ano yung nakahain..I am blessed, very blessed in some aspects of my life I know. But when and where can I find my true happiness??.... Still i'm searching for it and i'm very much hungry and dying to have it.

Cosplay: Enma Ai~~~ The Hell Girl ~~~

 
When I was a child.. I never dreamt of wearing Anime costumes or make any pictorial like this. The most funny thing was, I have this pictorial after I graduated College and when I am already a Registered Nurse. Feel young! Look young! :)

You Made Me Better Today..

What I am now, I owe it all to you my Lord, I thank you for everything you've given me, to my family, to my friends and to my love ones. I may have gained and lose some of them but u made me realize that things in life are not permanent. We need to move forward, meet new people, new experiences, stumble and stand again. In everyday life, I learned that I should not focus only in what is in front of me neither, I need to focus on things that surrounds me because each of them has a special part of my life stories' success.

Statue

I don't know why someone wanted me to listen to this song..

maybe the lyrics say it so..:)

Reality

Things that made you realize that I LIKE the Guy

1. When I call you "KUYA". Kuya in a way na "kuya kunwari" haha..wala lang for me it's comfortable di siya nakakailang..:)

2. If I cracked jokes when I'm talking to you..kasi normally if I like the guy whom I'm talking to..I really trying my best to give him the reason to smile. But unfortunately lumalabas na corny ang mga jokes ko. haha so it's useless.

3. When I see you in public places such as Malls, I would not be able to make you pansin and say a little "HI/HELLO". Umiiwas talaga ako, lalo na if I'm not comfortable with what I am wearing. The truth is/normally I can't really look straight to the face of someone whom I like most..personally but in pictures?hahahaha..face to face ang drama te! :)

4. Magtataka ka nalang ba't ako umiiwas sa landas na magkakasalubong tayo.

5. I f we are in a group and pansin na pansin ang aking katahimikan, ibig sabihin nyan one of the them is my type. Pero may ibang ibig sabihin pa ng aking pananahimik,------> natatae ako, nagugutom, nabobored, inaantok, pagod and many more..:)

6. Usually if that someone asked a little favor, little lang naman yung makaya ng aking powers, I try my best to do that little favor of HIM.

7. I easily got irritated pag siya na ang umiirita or nambubully sa akin. haha. ewan ko ba, I'm so sensitive pagdating sa kanya.

8. Worse-----> kapag siya di nagpaparamdam, nagpapapansin sa akin....automatic deleted siya sa phonebook ko, sa list of friends and sa heart kong O.A..haha..but not applicable sa lahat ng CRUSH ko..sa mga taong pili lang..haha



TO BE CONTINUED...

Friendly lang..:)

Sometimes I don't wanna be good anymore and be nice to everybody because when I do so I always end up getting hurt, misinterpreted and judged. For instance to those people whom I don't really now or not yet that close but still wants  to be friends with me. I do talk with them, be friends with them but not to the point that I talked to them because I do like them. NO! really NO! sometimes friendly lang talaga ako..hehe..