Reality

Things that made you realize that I LIKE the Guy

1. When I call you "KUYA". Kuya in a way na "kuya kunwari" haha..wala lang for me it's comfortable di siya nakakailang..:)

2. If I cracked jokes when I'm talking to you..kasi normally if I like the guy whom I'm talking to..I really trying my best to give him the reason to smile. But unfortunately lumalabas na corny ang mga jokes ko. haha so it's useless.

3. When I see you in public places such as Malls, I would not be able to make you pansin and say a little "HI/HELLO". Umiiwas talaga ako, lalo na if I'm not comfortable with what I am wearing. The truth is/normally I can't really look straight to the face of someone whom I like most..personally but in pictures?hahahaha..face to face ang drama te! :)

4. Magtataka ka nalang ba't ako umiiwas sa landas na magkakasalubong tayo.

5. I f we are in a group and pansin na pansin ang aking katahimikan, ibig sabihin nyan one of the them is my type. Pero may ibang ibig sabihin pa ng aking pananahimik,------> natatae ako, nagugutom, nabobored, inaantok, pagod and many more..:)

6. Usually if that someone asked a little favor, little lang naman yung makaya ng aking powers, I try my best to do that little favor of HIM.

7. I easily got irritated pag siya na ang umiirita or nambubully sa akin. haha. ewan ko ba, I'm so sensitive pagdating sa kanya.

8. Worse-----> kapag siya di nagpaparamdam, nagpapapansin sa akin....automatic deleted siya sa phonebook ko, sa list of friends and sa heart kong O.A..haha..but not applicable sa lahat ng CRUSH ko..sa mga taong pili lang..haha



TO BE CONTINUED...

Friendly lang..:)

Sometimes I don't wanna be good anymore and be nice to everybody because when I do so I always end up getting hurt, misinterpreted and judged. For instance to those people whom I don't really now or not yet that close but still wants  to be friends with me. I do talk with them, be friends with them but not to the point that I talked to them because I do like them. NO! really NO! sometimes friendly lang talaga ako..hehe..

How Can You Say That I Totally Moved On?

Facebook setting
1. I will be able to view his profile and scan his Pictures with his new GF without hurting.
2. I will be able to comment in a friends status wherein he also commented.
3. I will be able to talk to him using a friends status.
4. I will be able to make fun of him and throw stupid jokes.
5. I will be able to add HIM and his GIRL in my account.
6. If I'm not talking about love in my status'.
7. If I don't like posts of my friends or posts on my own wall things related to our relationship in the past.

True to life setting
1. I will be able to talk to him personally.
2. I f accidentally we've crossed our ways I will be able to give him a smile.
3. If I will be able to share my past experiences with him to others.
4. If I would not cry no more if I remember the memories we have.
5. I will just laugh on things that I have done after I broke up with him.
6. If I will be able to appreciate and got attracted to some other guys not HIM.
7. If he's not entering in my mind everyday.

Deal with it. Accept it. Learn to let go. And move on. :) Life goes on. Just keep on smiling. :)

to be continued.........

I Love the Lord

 I Love The Lord Lyrics

[REFRAIN:]
I love the Lord, He is filled with compassion.
He turned to me on the day that I called.
From the snares of the dark, O, Lord, save my life,
Be my strength.

Gracious is the Lord, and just.
Our God is mercy, rest to the weary.
Return my soul to the Lord our God who bids tears away.
I love the Lord. (REFRAIN)

How can I repay the Lord for all the goodness He has shown me?
I will raise the cup of salvation and call on His name.
I love the Lord. (REFRAIN)

I shall live my vows to You before Your people,
I am Your servant.
I will offer You my sacrifice of praise and of pray'r.
I love the Lord. (REFRAIN)

From the snares of the dark, O, Lord, save my life,
Be my strength.

From the snares of the dark, O, Lord, save my life,
Be my strength…

All I Want Is You Today

Some things never change 
Some things will remain 
And I always hope and pray 
That I could change that day 
And maybe find a way 
To make you come to me and stay ... 

Chorus: 
Yesterday doesn`t matter 
Tommorow we may not ever know 
So listen to me now 
As I try to say 
That all I want is you today ... 

If you only knew 
What you put me through 
You might not have gone away 
Have you ever felt 
Even for a while 
Something`s missin` in your life ... 
(Repeat Chorus) 

All I want is you today 
If you don`t need me anymore 
Don`t say it 
If you don`t love me anymore 
Don`t show it 
Because this life I have is yours 
So maybe you could try not to love me again ... 

Chorus 2: 
Yesterday doesn`t matter 
Tommorow I just might be gone 
So listen to me now 
As I try to say 
That all I want is you today ... All I want is you today ...

I wanna be independent!

Since I was a child, my parents wanted me to be independent and to decide for myself. I can say decision making is one of my "kalbaryo sa buhay" it's so hard for me to decide in some situations even in small things  like in what color of dress, sandals, what kind of jeans to buy and to wear I always seek for the opinion of my mom and sometimes if I asked my mom or my sister they always scolded me, they always told me that I am old enough and it is not their responsibility anymore and I should decide for myself.

Now that I am already a registered nurse, still it's quite hard for me to have my decision in so many aspects or many situations because I'm afraid of being a failure, having a downfall, or making a wrong decisions. But I guess being a failure, having a downfall or making wrong decision doesn't make you a nonsense or useless individual. Things like this molded you to be better, to do things right and experienced the reality of life.

Hurts Like Hell

Never expect, never assume and never ever dare to fall in love with someone you are not sure of, because if u do it will hurt you like hell.

What's wrong with me is, I've loved, I'd do everything for the wrong person. I just realized that I have done something that I've never done before or shall we say I've done something that I know myself will never do such things. Another wrong thing is even though I make myself busy or make myself focus in anything or anyone my only mindset is him.

I acted stupid now a days, I acted crazy, I acted the person na hindi naman talaga ako. I know he's not that important pero kahit anong gawin ko, I can't get him out of my mind. I know lilipas lang to and I know it's just an infatuation.

It really sounds weird when you loved a person who don't love you, when there are some people out there reaching there hands and making some efforts just to be with you or just to have you. 

We will just have to wait, for the right person to fill up the empty space of our hearts-------the so called DESTINY but they say destiny won't work without putting any effort on it, but for me, let it be, cause I believe everything will fall into place.<3

Negative in Real Life

I am fond of watching and reading movies or books with lovestories for it make my imagination go far away from reality. I just love the way how man told the lady how much he loves her or the moment when they enjoy each others company. The memories they have shared wether good or bad, the crying moments, the lines that they throw to each other. The things that make the story so interesting.

I just remembered what my new found friend told me that I should never ever watch and believe movies with lovestories for it will just make me fantazise, hope that such kind of story will happen in my life but the reality is, it really don't happen in real life.

Dream On!!

Often times I really dreamed too much, I dreamed of having a mansion, a car, working abroad, earning enough salary to provide and sustain my family's needs and to have a business---a Buotique. But for now, I never ever dreamt or planned having my own family..literally "owned". I enjoyed being single and being free and enjoying my life, treating myself on things that I worked hard for.

I really wish years from now, I would be able to work abroad, have a stable job, a house and I would be able to make my parents happy and tour them around the world..haha.. sounds really freaky right?

I am just praying that when the time comes that I made all my dreams come true I wish that my parents especially my mother is still alive, has a good condition, good health and able to appreciate everything. I just love my mother so much. It's time for me to bring back all the sacrifices she have done for us, thanking her for doing all the best that she can for us to graduate in our chosen degree. I thank God for giving me a mother like her. A fighter, knows how to handle and solve problems and a strong individual despite of her condition. Super Hands Salute to my loving mother! Love you Mom forever and always!! <3 <3

I'm So Over You

"So Over You"

Lately I've been thinking that it's time
To realize that I've been oh so blind
With you I never really spoke my mind
You put me down, didn't support my grind
Now I feel my life is so refine
Finally able for me to shine
(I'm so over us)

Never really made it to cloud 9
Now that you're gone I'm doing just fine
Can't believe I wasted all my time
I thought that you& I were so intwine
If I could I would press rewind
And leave everything that you gave behind
(it was never love)

Everything I gave boy you'd break it
I was so hurt that my heart couldn't take it
You used to tell me without you I wouldn't make it
But boy you should know...
I'm so over you, it's crazy.
Taking your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know,
I'm so over you

Don't even pull that I'm sorry thang
You don't even mean it because you haven't changed
I could see you hold my frame
Maintain the thing so you could play your game
How you want me to rock your chain
But put me down to cover up your pain
What was I to do?
Boy you nearly drove me insane.
You'd cheat, I'd cry, then you'd explain.
Over & over the same routine
But me to hold on was such a strain
When I let go, that's when I gained, I'll never go back to you again
Boy you're nothing new

Everything I gave, boy you'd break it
I was so hurt that my heart couldn't take it
You used to tell me without you I couldn't make it
But boy you should know...
I'm so over you, it's crazy.
Took your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know I'm so over you

I'm so over you [x6]
Boy those things you do
I'm so over you

I'm so over you, it's crazy
Taking your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know I'm so over you

I'm so over you, it's crazy
Taking your number off out my phone, boy I'm doing just fine alone
Can't believe I called you baby
Boy you should know I'm so over you